Taking at where I left it - This entry is not to justify any of my decisions, but more to open up to others the possibilities of circumstances that we might be facing in our divine endeavour.
Challenge #4: Nipple confusion.
I started introducing bottled EBM when she was about a month old just for her to get the hang of it. Alhamdullillah she was able to accept it. I bought anti-colic MAM Welcome Gift Set from Enjoy Breastfeed and stick with it till today. Never tried any other brand, though.
Since I didn't know my baby gender prior to her delivery,
I chose to buy the aqua-coloured bottles.
Tapi sebenarnya they're GREEN in colour. But green is fine.
It comes with two 5oz bottles, one 9oz bottle, a pacifier and a clip. Had never used the 9oz bottle and since all the accessories
(teats, neck, base & silicone seal) are interchangeable,
I have enough spares.
*will soon buy the irresistible pink, just FYI ;P
The 1st couple of weeks at babysitter's was smooth sailing. But on Mondays, she had hard time accepting bottled EBM because of all the direct-feedings during the weekends. And there were times during weekends when she was all fussy and didn't want miss B at all! It was until late afternoon, and I can't stand the idea of her not drinking milk from me, I tried giving her a bottle of EBM. She devoured the milk out of thirst and exhaustion while I cried thinking what a bad mom I am (for not understanding my baby & giving the bottled EBM earlier).
It affected me for about a week or so and I hated not to direct-feed, my colleague Kak Su suggested to keep the room cool during feeding since my baby probably could not stand my body heat and IT WORKS!
Challenge #5: Duty travel.
Right after my confinement period ended and I started working, I was assigned for 12 days duty travel. Since I have about a month to prepare, terus gigih kumpul stok EBM and my baby still having bad time accepting my excessive lipase frozen EBM. Each time I send her to babysitter, I would selitkan satu atau dua botol thawed EBM. Sometimes she took it, sometimes she didn't.
Thinking about going away with minimal stock just breaks my heart and due to the stress/overthinking, my milk production went down the hill. So I said to myself - Fine, I'll just do my best. And I don't need the unnecessary stress. So what ~ if I have to supplement my baby with formula milk (FM)?
Without the pressure to collect the stock, baru la my production ok. However, I miscalculated the amount of milk I should be keeping for the period I'd be away. Instead of 96 bottles of 5oz, I only managed to squeeze out half of it!
I was devastated but then again, FM is no evil. It's an alternative. I shouldn't be so upset coz God knows how hard I've tried...
I feel bad, but let's not go there.
She's a happy baby somehow :)*mode nak sedapkan hati :P
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6 comments:
Qis- fm is not evil. Dont ever think that u need to justify ur decision as a mom to anyone. It is mother's nature to give what's best for baby. U have been strong n awesome mom.
I pun ada citer panjang psl breastfeeding journey i
Yg i will share after i feel i am at peace with my current decision and situation. Skrg ni hormon post partum kurang stabil untuk bercerita :)
*hugs*
Hi.. What you've given or still giving is a two thumbs up... They are people who can't even BF for two week.. So, give ur self a big clap for being a superp mum... Celebrate hun.... Btw, i'm blog walking.. want to exchange blog?
i know there are some mothers out there yang took their decision to bf to the extreme lepas tu lash out on mothers giving formula milk to their babies. like eida said, fm is not evil. mothers of course want only the best for their kids. i was one of those babies grew up solely on fm cos my mom can't produce milk at all. not only bf is all about determination, it's also rezeki.
so don't beat up yourself. :)
Eida:
;) Thanks dear for your support :) Yeah, each one of us are granted with different capability, and we just perform our best.
All the best finishing your confinement period. I personally hate it. The postpartum emotions are so complicated! *hugs jugak*
Julie:
Hi! Thanks a lot ;D You're rite it's not easy. I should look more on the positive side of it.
*I just linked you!
Moose:
Yeahhh... the lashing out part tu! And acting holier than thou. Without understanding the whole situation - because they're not in the same shoe. But who are they to judge... Tgk, u grow up excellently je kan ;)
Setuju dgn moose. Qis, aku pun mcm dah start nak merundum nie. Dan last week aku dah start survey FM. sedih, tapi kita tau kan ape yg terbaik utk anak kite. Plus, yes, they're both are happy baby kan? kan? :)
Qiesh:
Yep, aku rasa mmg by the time baby start solid food, our supply pon kurang... Hopefully it lasted till our baby 2 yo kan? InsyaAllah...
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